It was Eid season. My daughter came back from school unhappy. Like every parent, i was interested to know why she didn’t come out jumping on me as usual. Isabella is always happy, bubbly and cheerful. I thought probably she didn’t finish her work in school or someone made her upset. But in reply to my question of why she was unhappy, she gave me an answer that surprised me in a good way. She said i am unhappy because some people in my class are celebrating Eid. That means they don’t worship Jesus. I don’t want them to go to hell fire. When i get to school tomorrow i’m going to tell them that they need to love Jesus Christ and start going to church, she said.
We live in England and despite my kids go to a faith school, there is a lot of restrictions on what you can do when it comes to telling others about your faith. My maternal instinct to protect my child kicked in. Knowing my daughter, i knew she was sure going to do this in school the next day. And i didn’t want her to get in trouble as a result. So in fear and panic, i told her she didn’t need to tell them about it, that we should pray for her friends. We held hands and prayed together. She’s always prays that everyone in her class will love Jesus Christ. So i felt she will be ok with my answer.
Prayer is good. But in this case, i was using it as a tool to mask my fears and to silence my daughter from speaking up. I got convicted afterwards. I repented and told her that she can tell her friends about Jesus Christ in a loving way. I showed her how to go about this and i also made her realise that she can make them love Jesus Christ by the way she lives her life in school – showing love.
I drew out 2 life lessons from this incidence.
Firstly, like my 6 years old daughter, do i show godly sorrow when i see people who don’t love Jesus Christ? Does it bother me to the point where i feel i need to do something about it? Or do i just talk and not show any action. Do i feel it’s my responsibility to make that neighbour or colleague to know about Jesus Christ or do i live the job for the next christian to do?
Secondly, my reaction surprised me. It was like God showing me to me. You see it’s easy to say i can die for the sake of the gospel until a gun is pointed at your face. The reality of the days we are now living in hit me. Jesus Christ said;
If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. Matthew 16:25.
I felt it was God trying to show me something through that incidence because immediately i reacted the way i did, conviction came in instantly and i began to reflect on how hard it will be for us to share Christ as the day draws nearer.
Secondly, why do i pray? Is it to mask my fear? Is it a camouflage to delay me from doing what i need to do? Is it a way of me hiding away? These were exactly what i did. And it made me start thinking of the many times we find it ‘safer’ to say ‘i’ll pray about it’ when we know God needs us to speak up. “Oh i need God to confirm it to me”. Are you really sure about that? Or is it a ‘holy lie’ that you are using to shy away from doing what needs to be done?
This year, let’s not be passive about Jesus Christ. Let’s follow and obey the leading of the Holy Spirit always. Let’s be conscious of the time we are living in and grab every opportunity that comes up for us to tell someone about Jesus Christ. I know we can bring people to Christ via our lifestyles but this should never take the place of speaking to them too. Paul said,
For I am not ashamed of this Good News about Christ. It is the power of God at work, saving everyone who believes–the Jew first and also the Gentile. Romans 1:16
Don’t be ashamed to tell someone about the One who you believe in.