Should I call go for that job? Should I hang out with these girls some more? Should I text my ex? Should I do ‘this thing’ one more time? Should I attend this party? Should I ………???
These questions often flood our minds sometimes which leads to us being uncertain about issues of life. If God has clearly told us to end a chapter in our lives, we sometimes find ourselves in situations where we are struggling with cutting off the strings tying us to those areas. The could I, would I, should I thought creeps in and starts to consume us. Most of the time, it isn’t because we didn’t understand the instruction God gave. But it is mostly because our flesh still long for those things. We focus our minds on what we are losing instead of what we will be gaining. We say we want to be like God, but we don’t really mean it from our heart. We struggle with every instruction we are given because we don’t want to surrender everything to Him. We like the idea of being saved but we really do not want to be saved. We feel we will be losing out from fun, friends and life if we totally live for Jesus Christ. We don’t want to be mocked, talked about, and seen as ‘not cool’ or ‘too deep’.
It might be worth reminding ourselves that God knows us inside out. We cannot hide anything from Him. He knows whether we are serious with our confessions or not.
15 I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16 So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. 17 You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked.
Revelation 3:15-17New International Version (NIV)
The first sentence in the above bible verse says, I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. God knows what we are doing at every time. He sees our heart. He knows whether we are truly living for Him or not. He doesn’t like us being uncertain about living for Him. It is either we are or we are not. It is either we are obedient to Him or we are disobedient to Him. So if He told you not to take that job offer, then don’t. If He tells you to stop hanging out with those friends who are pulling you away from Him, then listen! If He tells you to quit that relationship, then please do.
Verse 17 of that bible passage shows how narrow minded we are. We often focus on what we can see and handle. We focus on the now instead of eternity. We focus so much on our life here on earth which is only a vapour. We forget so quickly that the God we choose to be rebellious towards is still the one who has our lives in His hands. We forget that our lives can end at any time and that the things we keep pursuing will never satisfy us. We have so shifted our attention for the things that really do matter to things that are temporary. We call this ‘living the life’. We see living for Christ as boring. The last sentence of the verse makes us realise that what we see as rich and wealthy is poverty in the eyes of God.
God is never happy with uncertainty. He has called us out of darkness into His marvellous light (1 Peter 2:9). He called us out. Being out means that we are no longer part of darkness. We are now to live our lives like those in the light. We shouldn’t be uncertain about our calling. Our hearts should be in accordance with God’s plan for us. We should constantly be in tune with God. He leads and we follow.
We sometimes deceive ourselves by presenting sacrifices to cover our loopholes instead of obedience. This is exactly what Saul did in 1 Samuel 15. We get busy in church. We volunteer in several departments. We serve until we are worn out. The reality is, being busy doesn’t equate to being obedient. We can be very busy for God here on earth and still end up in hell. Saul was busy sacrificing an offering unto God but this didn’t mean that God was pleased with His sacrifice. Doing something in the name of God doesn’t mean it has been accepted by God.
Instead of covering up our disobedience by sacrificing other things, it is better we heed to what God is saying to us. If we hang on the job, relationships and habits that God told us to quit, but then we are zealous for Him in other areas to cover up, we are only deceiving ourselves.
Be certain about living and obeying God totally.